至少还有你

如果全世界我也可以放弃
至少还有你值得我去珍惜
而你在这里
就是生命的奇迹

也许全世界我也可以忘记
就是不愿意失去你的消息
你掌心的痣
我总记得在那里

我们好不容易
我们身不由己

至少还有你








i have moved to:
http://www.yourdemoninme.blogspot.com/

THE SCRIPT

Cause If one day you wake up and find your missing me


woots! i got a new bike! =)


the old bike full of memories
was moved back to its original parking lot
and after a few days, its gone


dinner wit jelly - nasi goreng seafood
look at wat she's doing..


..picking out all the peas
she hates peas and carrots


i had nasi goreng ikan billis extra spicy
i remember krish used to order extra extra extra spicy mee goreng
from hell
miss em good o' sentosa days
when everyday is heaven


sleepy jelly


we found this pistol near CK departmental store
anyways CK sells cheap n' good china umbrellas =)

and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be


went to Simei East Point to pass Lester's gf
his EA Spore game disc
Han River - food totally sucks
but i had good memories of nasty food there too


and bought a Linksys ADSL Modem
from Challenger at $70/-
Qiang works there (still does)


Look at these notebooks
how cute? $1/- only


went back to TP to see the lecturers
about my failed SIP
was quite interesting

quah: you're not the ming we know anymore.
ming: how say?
quah: you used to be so fun-loving and responsible.
ming: i still am wat..
quah: no you're not. now you're very bitter about life!
ming: aiyo, really?
quah: we all noticed, you changed suddenly.
ming: no la, where got?
quah: you can't fool us. we eat salt more than you eat rice.
ming: don't have la. i'm still me.
quah: then why are you so affected?
ming: where got affected?
quah: i think you need a befriender or counselling.
ming: wat life?
quah: wat?
ming: nothing..

Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet


ahh.. the Sports Complex


grocery shopping for
steamboat + bbq at fion's


"is LURVE"


james the aunty picking vegetables


fion mum's new stationary shop
come and support!
its officially opened on 27 Oct 2008 (Monday)
where? downtown east (near sakura buffet restaurant)
special? 15% discount store wide
what? a lot of very cute stuff


stuff you do when you're
rather bored..

And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street


do you know who snoopy's brother is?
woodstock? wrong!


chillin' before dinner


ho ho ho..
look wat i did to the duck on the right


the girls watching filipino prisoners dancing to Souja Boy
on youtube


two idiots


yawn...


i need a massage..
huijing looks like she's up to no good


in case you haven notice on the first browse
i've adjusted the stats of the photos
so you can better see the orbs floating around
Paranormal Investigation of Temasek Polytechnic (PITP)

So I'm not moving, I'm not moving


enjoying Steph's concert
then played Go-Back-Jump


Steph lost and she had to tie 2 pony-tails till 12mn
NOTE: Fion doing her hair


tada!


BBQ Chicken?


quite an array! P=
i dun realli like the chicken pieces
cos it was marinated in red vinegar


O O O Ophix!~
supposed to finish the steamboat/bbq
then go down to Dexter's chalet
but it was ermm.. kinda too late
and everyone was leaving already

Policeman says, "son you can't stay here"


so we watched 4BIA dvd (thai)
wat life? most of them fell asleep watching it
only me, james and amelia survived through the 4 stories


the 4 stories were rather entertaining:
1. HAPPINESS: quite interesting
2. TIT FOR TAT: got two very pretty girls
3. IN THE MIDDLE: interesting, expected ending
4. THE LAST FLIGHT: freaky princess

storylines: 6/10
graphics: 8.5/10
acting: 9/10
scare factor: 5/10

overall: 6.5/10
as a horror film lover, my opinion is that if you really wanna make your movie scary - don't overdo the CG (computer graphics), better the storyline and plot. period.


found this book at fion's and started reading it
Mitch Albom - For One More Day
very good for suicidal people, like myself?
i'm like pudge; i rot myself to death - for no reason


Fion's little brother playing some flash sniper game
NOTE: Fion doing his hair
for an career advice
maybe she can pursue a diploma in hair styling
(just kidding, she's juz a very nice eldest sister)

I said, "there's someone I'm waiting for If it's a day, a month, a year"


in the morning, james woke all of the rest up
and we went to changi village to eat nasi lemak
yum yum yum yum yum


wat life?
anywayz after the breakfast
me and james went to Loyang TPG for some baibai
before we head home and pig out
watched a bit of Hot Shot
"YEAH! 我是Superman..
YEAH! 你是Loser.."

Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go


now, everybody together..
Cause If one day you wake up and find your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving,
I'm not moving, I'm not moving

LIVE JOURNAL GAYS

dolyce` says:
that's why i have lj
hahahahah

Sexy Bear in Yellow Bikini says:
i also have lan jiao
we can all be gays

兵不厌战

兵不厌战
兵不厌战
兵不厌战
兵不厌战
兵不厌战
兵不厌战

NEW LINKSYS MODEM

after spending $70
i finally got my internet connection back

phew..

A Lonely Road..

"Dear God.. The only thing I ask.."
Was doing spring cleaning for my hard disk
found some old stuff lying around..


BSC EXCO Comm


BSC EXCO at DnD


Lovin' Hook


Biz Guides Workshop


Our AGM



OPHIX chalet - Changi


EMOMING_15 vs EMOTAT_16


DRAGOS at DnD


15 Lessons - part 1


Adventures of Captain Green


Festive Events Project - Standard Chartered
how i cheated through..


BCS Excel Project - Ugly Pet Shop


Jean's Psycho Project Filming - Genie Rice Cooker


Amberhaze EP - Guiliano


for nicole goh


Magazine Star


ACCION
my straightened hair horrid days


Cable Car leaving TAS


SSM at Toptable


T07 Boys


F&B - Pasta de Waraku @ Marina


Captains Ball Champions - AGAIN


BUSINESS has won the war
but not MING


CCN Day + Open House


Raffles Spa


My Hidden/Surprise Trophies


Drunk Cheong


H13


MOHAWKS at Andrew's birthday
where i got my spongebob handphone strap


BESE Corporate Photo


The Famous 0604433C Youtube Account

Home Coming..

i had a weird dream this morning
of a gathering at Jia Jin's house

there were Jia Jin, Jun Wen, Lester, Yang, Ruixiang, Pok, Foo Jia En and myself
i was roller blading in his house
come back soon, Jia Jin
we miss you =)

What gives?

Joseph VS Vincent
Billards Room - Cricket Club, Padang


What gives?


Familiarity


I used to have tuition here
back in my sec school days


sharing a pack is love



take flight?


australian chocolate stickers


battle field


chipped 20ct coin


set-up


f&b/games area


live! camera man



CYA


nettings up


costuming


f&b/games area


mission ten:10


domo-kun


chess-master jelly


scratch here


poor english
and my last day with specforce enterprise pte ltd - goodbye


blackies


thai nasi goreng USA


chicken alphabets


autumn


to search for a missing dog in vain


pooping cat


my past obsession



muhala kebab



knife set - loaned to jereborne


The Eye 1 - lick char siew scene


shall i call?


parkway parade starbucks


wen, ming, lest


zodiac?


3 for 2


parkway food court korean saba


chinese style?


healthy lifestyle


ever played hide-and-seek in Parkway GIANT?


or tried the free Infra-red Game?


bought Marley & Me and a Camel Bone giraffe


watching E Zuo Ju Er Wen at lest's
got a chio ang mo girl
and cutesy lin yi chen


yang's boobie spore


my big-dick spore


lively


"i bring u go prawning!"
"my sister's bf got bring me go prawing before.."


hooking up the clams


casting off


then its all about 念力


my first catch!


pok the prawing expert


killing spree


watch em crawl


focus is key


no humping the fence


lester -7
ming - 5


look how fat they are


seasoning
- sea salt
- pepper
- mixed herbs
- olive oil
- cheese


tada



nothing beats eating ur own catch for breakfast
adrian chen = fisherman's son


new age 喜饼
from my cousin charmaine


how sick is james?


dragon knight - RAR!


khimari in action!


Itching for the tall grass,
longing for the breeze..


stupid sponge

CONGRATS

congrats to mr. and mrs tay
05 October 2008

i wanna be god-father hor!

Thunder

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8_kFK6d5p6o

15 Lessons [part 2] - 2008

Production of the celebrated
15 Lessons 2008 (private video)
has completed! =)
starring: JAMES, DOICE, MING, MATTHEW



[HOW TO WATCH]
sign in to your youtube
go to http://www.youtube.com/actuallyi
add 'actuallyi' as your friend
sms/msn/email me your username
await approval
enjoy! =)

[PREVIEW]

who is kathleen?

cos i...
will never be..

how lively?

hmmm? i noticed my neighbour is online
tap ahhhhh!!!!


i tried to pick up jelly's sister wit popoy's tagline
"how are you? do i know you? anyway, i hope i can got to know u, and be your friend. can i have any contact from you, handphone number or email addres?"










then she replied
"Okay, first of all.. you're doing it ALL wrong..

Usually.. they'll start out with some flattery.. like, " I like your pics " or " I think you're hot " or " English Muffins? McDonalds one can? " to let me know that they've taken the effort to look through my profile..

Then, THEY will leave their contact number (mobile usually) or email address for MSN.

Only AFTER leaving THEIR contact details will they ask for mine, or they'll say " Hope to get to know you better " or " Hope to see you on MSN " or some shit like that...

I'll forward you some examples...

Meanwhile, care to try again??

Jud^"


how lively?
hahha.. is that how you despos/internet sex fiend do it?
"hey.. i think i've seen u in school before! you're the so-and-so's friend."
BOO!

Mission Failed

for those who still do not know
i have left my internship job after one month and three days
may need to repeat another 5 months in TP

thanks to jelly, james, yang and wen
who showed concern and understood my situation

thanks to wilson and mason
who will always be my brothers
in rain in shine
through snow and sun
unity is strength

i only have internet access from 9pm to 10pm
from tapping other people's network

you have internet access all day
is that why our modem is not fixed?

special thanks goes out to james
for lending me his external hard disk
at least i can watch some disney movies
during the 23 hours that i do not have internet connection
PRAISE

LOVELESS - act 1

Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess
We seek it thus, and take it to the sky
Ripples form on the water’s surface
The wandering soul knows no rest.

The infinite mystery
The gift of the goddess is what the three men seek
But their fates are scattered by war

One becomes a hero, one wanders the land
And the last is taken prisoner

But the three are still bound by a solemn oath
To seek the answer together, once again




--------------------------------------------

i'm changing blog AGAIN
do stay tune
for my new URL

ORIGAMI TIME

i like to do some origami now
like this domo-kun:


(click to enlarge)

should come out as something like that:

you raised me up

ocktoberfest
its been a year

you raised me up
so i can stand on moutains
you raised me up
to walk on stormy seas
i am strong
when i am on your shoulder
you raised me up
to more than i can be

i realise i still have a lot of growing up to do

fuck

shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit

damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

Dear Boss

my boss just asked me
"so what you gonna do with the sticker?"
i replied
"i would use lighter, but in case damage the sticker, use hair dryer"

he jeered to one of our designers
"you see wat kinda excuse he give me, use hairdryer!"
our designer said
"can use hairdryer if wan"

then he got nothing to say
WHAT LIFE?

--------------------------------------------------------------------

we think differently
and see things from different perspective
doesn't mean i'm an idiot
i handle things differently
doesn't mean i'm illogical

i clocked the most hours
and worked the most ungodly hours
(that nobody wants to work in)
during your Philips Roadshow

so now wat?
u dun like my face?
or you look down on me
cos i'm poor?

now Miss J is not around
your longest service staff is just a year
and he's a designer
i've been running road shows for more than a year
Philips Roadshow is not even half the size
of Reyna or Singtel Mega Fair
WHAT LIFE?
i'm here to learn
i'm humble
i wanna learn the way you run things
all i ask for is appreciation
and for you to teach
it doesn't mean Urban is a small useless company
or i am a worthless idiot

why am i the only one in the office wit a lousy computer?
why am i the only one in the office without an access card?
why do i deserve to be treated like a second class citizen?
why should i tolerate?
cos i want to learn
and thats wat i'm here for

where are all your interns?
why din anyone continue working
after they left?
is it you or is it us, interns?

i'm not finding excuses
but i really have zero morale
although i motivate myself everyday
that one day you'll see that i'm trying my best
i cannot stop making mistakes here and there
cos i dun feel the belongingness

randy is damn cheap
but at least he treats his people like HUMAN
at least he knows
that we all come from a mother's womb
我也是娘生的






p/s: again, this post is not targeted at my fellow interns
i feel em like my brothers
cos i may not have known them for very long
they played a part in the recovery of the darkest days of my life
and i love em
i remembered earlier this year
me and Mr. B were caught smoking in school
and he asked "can i say i wasn't smoking, but just accompanying you?"
i said "ok"
i would still do that for any one of them
cos to me, they are my brothers
it doesn't matter how they feel

my name is 铭恩
it means "remembering kindness"

Procrastination is like Masturbation

"Procrastination is like Masturbation, it feels GOOD until you realise you're just fucking YOURSELF"
(quote Wilson's old blog)




Anyways i found out there's an arch enemy blog
http://www.theangelinme.blogspot.com/

WHAT LIFE?
go take a look
"geometry is luuurrrvvvveeee.."

when life's like that..

to protect my eyes from the
PC monitor's UV rays


wat melamine?


always a beautiful sunset from my place


eat a lot


bully a lot


everybody loves some healthy naan
with chickpea curry


how often do you patrol in the forest?


magical forest


i collect stickers as a hobby


nastydemon's chaotic table


unity is strength


claypot rice wit dad


a stinky pet shop along east coast road


chicken rice dinner wit mason and wilson


dig in
after the meal we played 5-10
to clear the remaining dishes (and sauces)









playing hide-and-seek at Singapore EXPO






jazz pub, EXPO
i remember the day wit adrian, ah Q, yaozhong etc
throwing slippers onto the rooftop


focus and organise


gave wilson a taxi lift
to block 516


faster higher stronger set-up


jazz pub, EXPO


jelly came over to help me iron my shirt at 11pm
while i was busy finding songs with james for the event the following day


subway cookies from jelly for breakfast



zero-value cheap OT-siao bangladeshi - ming, wil, maz


until you come and sit awhile with me..















technical stuff


our cute clients


signs of a rainy day coming


free milk from McDonalds'


star!


mogu mogu


i'm the Champion of
Mc'Icecream Cone Sculpting Competition 2008
from Downtown East McDonalds'


heaven in a wild flower


doice and matt wrecking up my place
while i play DotA


Baby Mickey - still there!


cute chewies


Smiley for ming and matt
ming sticker for matt's psp






crazy people at fitness corner


jelly's smiley curry


trucker green coconut

Child's Heart

was on bus number 12 home
saw this little girl, call Chelsea
she wanna play scissors paper stone wit her dad
one round, the wager is $100/-
the father said "i dun have $100!"
the little girl starts to throw tantrums
the father said "how about $2?"
chelsea cried "i don't want, i want $100!"
her elder sister sitting in front playing PSP said
"chelsea, $1 can buy sweets already
daddy tell her $1 or nothing!"
she starts to hammer her dad

hahha..
irritatingly cute
(how long have i not used this word?)
irritatingly cute
irritatingly cute



i remember some time ago
i was on the bus
there was this girl
i "satay" her
(rub my finger under her nose)
she would start covering her face
it was really fun
and irritatingly cute
(this was the only time i used this word)
best bus ride ever
hope she's doing well in school
made some great friends in life
cos life is not an easy journey

i envy em kids

Child's Heart
Charles' Heart
any readers know my secret name's Charles? (besides Tony)
I'm a Child's Heart
I'm a Peterpan Legacy
I fly...

WORK SUCKS

Saw celia's nick
A job shld alwaz make u either 1)very rich, 2)very happy or 3)both. if its neither, hmm. time to change it
how true? but i'm only doing my $20/- a day internship
but i can still be happy

but no no no
i cannot be happy if
1) the boss does not believe in what i'm doing, or
2) the boss cannot identify my efforts

When the boss only dedicate the closest events to Mr. A and B.
I was doing HC, why suddenly Mr. A is doing?
What else is left for me to do?
Naturally later projects, I am not idling.
You are just not using me correctly.
Obviously you do not know what we are doing
Or you do not remember what task you assigned to each individual.
Why don't you write it down?
Maybe you'll have many pleasant surprises.



When there is work to be done,
Mr. A will always snatch the most "do-able and honourable" tasks.
Either way he wins - getting good contacts and appearing productive.
Leaving behind the shittier jobs for me and Mr. B.
Mr. B has a pleasant nature, hence having no problem with the boss.

When I am assigned to source a certain supplier,
I source just as hard as anyone would
staying in the office alone even after the designers' left.
When Mr. A has friends in the line
he would want to use his friends.
Taking over the job, leaving me nothing to do.

I'm not the kind who will turn down people who needs help.
Many a times after doing something, someone will either modify it and take credit for it.
Or take over my job before the client responded.
Or after doing like a mad dog, the boss decides to engage his own suppliers.
So my value is ZERO! I have ZERO output!
It makes so much sense now, my value is really zero.
I have nothing I can take pride/credit for.

So why would I want to stay longer in the office to find suppliers?
Why should I go the extra mile?
I should just do a mediocre passable job.
Give all your big tasks to your pet who doesn't even know wat "nos." is.
I shall stay in office and wait for instructions,
Maybe decorate my table a bit,
sweep the floor a bit.
Eavedrop when the boss is teaching them stuff
so at least i learn something..

Lets wait for Miss J to come back.
Maybe she isn't as blind.
if the boss were to ask me again
"why? working with me very unhappy?"
this time i will reply
"rather.. rather.."


PREGO






PS: a lot of ppl messaged me and most got my post wrong
i do not have issues wit Mr. A or Mr. B
wat life? they're my fellow interns
if i need to talk it out
its my boss i need to talk to

"princey princey.."

"princey princey.."
can someone tell me who's son is princey princey
the thought makes me rather happy in a way
its something cute
but i can't remember where i heard that from

some bus?
or something?
if u were wit me during the "princey princey" incident
please PM me

i swear my memory is failing me
must be those drugs

my mama can read my mind?
she bought me pork chops for dinner